February 20, 2008 - 4 Responses

You know when you scratch a dog in exactly the right spot and their leg starts to thump?  JD has a reflex that get’s his legs thumping too… it was too funny so we had to get it on video.  Sorry about all of us laughing so hard in the background.



February 12, 2008 - 10 Responses

I feel so on top of it today.  No the laundry still isn’t put away, the bed isn’t made, and I still need to work on a lot of things… BUT I did my hair today!  SHOCKER!  It’s literally been MONTHS since I’ve actually done my hair.  I’m not exaggerating, it’s been MONTHS AND MONTHS, possibly even a year.

I took pictures to prove my awesome feat.  Thank goodness for nap-times.  I will however be freakishly tired tonight because I didn’t nap with him.

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Pictures, finally

February 11, 2008 - 4 Responses

I couldn’t find our good camera so I took these with my cell phone:

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Ghetto Moby

February 6, 2008 - 6 Responses

After looking online and talking to a bunch of people I decided a while ago that I wanted to try the Moby Wrap with JD as a baby carrier.  It seemed to be nice and supportive and good for plus sized mom’s too.  My problem is I didn’t have $40-50 to buy one!  Instead I went to Wal-mart, found a poly-jersey double knit fabric.  Purchased 6 yards at a dollar a yard.  Went home, cut the fabric in half length wise and now I have 2 home made moby wraps.  I’ve only used it a few times (right now being one of them) but it’s GREAT!  JD loves is and it gives me freedom to use both hands.  Now that he’s awake more during the day it’s harder to get anything done: laundry, blogging, picking up, taking out trash bags full of diapers… this wrap is such a helper.  I can even bend over and his head is totally supported and I have both hands!  WAHOO!

Our Little Man

February 2, 2008 - 4 Responses

His little hand cracks me up.  He always has his hands up by his face.


Depression what?

January 31, 2008 - 7 Responses

I was worried a lot about giving birth because I was worried about Postpartum Depression.  I’ve had problems with depression a lot in my adult life and so Jeremy and I have been cautious about it since giving birth.  I have to admit, I really don’t have PPD at all.  I have my moments where I’ll cry about stupid things but it’s nothing excessive and it’s starting to taper off already.  I feel so blessed to have JD and it was such a uphill road to be able to get him that I am glad we don’t have to deal with me being too crazy.  Well crazier than normal.

I love looking down at Uno’s little face and having his dark eyes look up at me.  He’s only been around for 2 weeks and I already can’t even imagine our lives without him.  He’s our little miracle and I’m honored to be his mom.

HOWEVER: If the little twerp doesn’t stop peeing and pooping on me when I’m changing him we’re gonna have words.  😉

Emotions, GO AWAY!

January 27, 2008 - 7 Responses

WOW, I’m so ready for hormones to balance out.  Jeremy is too, poor husband of mine.  I am constantly crying and whining about how ‘bad’ I already am as a mother, while in my head I’m telling myself to shut up but I just can’t!  It doesn’t help that my body is completely out of wack and because of the blasted Cardiomyopathy Jeremy and I don’t know what should be causing us alarm and what is normal.

I have had the WORST headache for the past… week or so and it is just getting worse and worse.  Jeremy was clicking a pen and it hurt my head so bad I about strangled him.  I’d normally just write it off as nothing, but since me casually mentioning a headache is what got me induced it worries me that it has something to do with my heart.  The other bizarre thing is that I’m freezing cold 90% of the time.  To the point of shivering.  Jeremy is used to me saying I’m hot and us sleeping with windows open, now all of a sudden I’m layered up and wanting my rooms warmer. 

The Diuretic the doctor has me on for the water retention was not working at all.  Today Jer and I finally noticed a small change in my legs and the swelling.  So much for the “you’ll notice a change within hours”.  I have a check up with the Cardiologist next week so I guess we’ll find out more then.

 Sorry for venting so much, you know how it is. 

Breastfeeding Breakthrough!

January 23, 2008 - 7 Responses

Ok, as you can tell by the title I’m going to give you TMI… so if you are squeemish or male you might want to skip this post.  It’s funny how in person I’m so modest, but online I’m so open.  Kind of a contradiction I know.

Last night JD and I had a breastfeeding breakthrough.  Because JD was born so early his sucking reflex wasn’t very strong.  Add to that the fact that I have flat nipples, I have been using a nipple sheild when breastfeeding so that JD can latch on.  Last night he was able to latch on without the shield for the second half of a feeding!  WAHOOO.  I am sure you are wondering why it’s a big deal.  One of the perks of breastfeeding is that you don’t have to worry about a ton of bottles and it’s just on demand.  When you  have to make sure you  have a shield and it’s clean all the time it takes some of the convenience.

Oh and on the Cardiology front, I’m being started on the diuretic today.  Guess I better stay close to the restroom because I hear they kick in and you start to urinate very quickly after taking them.  FUN FUN!

Boy this whole post is full of TMI!  FUN!

Pregnant and Modest?

January 22, 2008 - 4 Responses

I’m a pretty modest person.  I don’t even like being fully undressed in front of Jeremy… so child birth was quite the experience.  By the time JD was born I didn’t care who was watching what.  Jeremy didn’t want to watch the actual birth, and I’m really kind of glad because now that I’m starting to heal my concern about who saw what is coming back.  He did however catch a glimpse of the doctor stitching up the episiotomy.  I think he is still having nightmares about it.

Between birth, the fact that I had a catheter in that they had to check every few hours, and that I was on Magnesium Sulfate for 48 hours (making me a bit loopy and often requiring extra help)  I had to learn not to be shy about a nurse checking things out, pushing and prodding.  I’m glad I’ve gotten some what used to it because now I have to deal with breast feeding and having a nurse help and watch with that.  Because JD is in the Level 2 Nursery NICU unit they monitor his feedings closely.  Checking to make sure he’s getting fluids, he’s “latched” properly, and I’m doing ok.  I still have my moments of self consciousness and it will be hard to adjust to feedings at home where there are people around and trying not to let it get to me.  With the nurses I figure they see it all the time and if I accidentally flash them (easy to do being so big chested) it’s not a big deal.

Today I had an appointment with my Cardiologist.  They are concerned about my massive swelling that has yet to go away.  If it’s not gone, or at least starting to get better in the next couple days they are going to start me on some Diuretics to get rid of the fluid and do a heart echo immediately.  The concern they have is that if it’s related to my heart and not just because I gave birth then it’s a sign that the labor weakened it more.  Good news is that excess swelling is common after birth in many women so that’s why he’s waiting the few days.  He is also having me weigh myself daily to see if there is excess gain due to retaining the water.  I am still going to be on the beta blockers till at least 3-6 months post delivery.  They will start doing heart echo’s then (unless they have to sooner because of the water retention) to make sure that I’m back to normal function.  If I am then we will get the green light to have more children later down the road (much later if you ask us).  With the next pregnancy we would do a heart echo before trying to conceive and then continue them throughout the pregnancy to make sure that the Cardiomyopathy doesn’t resurface, and so if it does it’s caught early.  So I guess in 6 months we’ll know the “are you gonna have more?” answer.


January 21, 2008 - 2 Responses

I just wanted to thank you all for the Baby shower!  It was wonderful to see everyone who was able to make it out.  Little JD is lucky to be so loved already, and we can’t wait till he’s home and can use all the things he was given.