Pregnant and Modest?

I’m a pretty modest person.  I don’t even like being fully undressed in front of Jeremy… so child birth was quite the experience.  By the time JD was born I didn’t care who was watching what.  Jeremy didn’t want to watch the actual birth, and I’m really kind of glad because now that I’m starting to heal my concern about who saw what is coming back.  He did however catch a glimpse of the doctor stitching up the episiotomy.  I think he is still having nightmares about it.

Between birth, the fact that I had a catheter in that they had to check every few hours, and that I was on Magnesium Sulfate for 48 hours (making me a bit loopy and often requiring extra help)  I had to learn not to be shy about a nurse checking things out, pushing and prodding.  I’m glad I’ve gotten some what used to it because now I have to deal with breast feeding and having a nurse help and watch with that.  Because JD is in the Level 2 Nursery NICU unit they monitor his feedings closely.  Checking to make sure he’s getting fluids, he’s “latched” properly, and I’m doing ok.  I still have my moments of self consciousness and it will be hard to adjust to feedings at home where there are people around and trying not to let it get to me.  With the nurses I figure they see it all the time and if I accidentally flash them (easy to do being so big chested) it’s not a big deal.

Today I had an appointment with my Cardiologist.  They are concerned about my massive swelling that has yet to go away.  If it’s not gone, or at least starting to get better in the next couple days they are going to start me on some Diuretics to get rid of the fluid and do a heart echo immediately.  The concern they have is that if it’s related to my heart and not just because I gave birth then it’s a sign that the labor weakened it more.  Good news is that excess swelling is common after birth in many women so that’s why he’s waiting the few days.  He is also having me weigh myself daily to see if there is excess gain due to retaining the water.  I am still going to be on the beta blockers till at least 3-6 months post delivery.  They will start doing heart echo’s then (unless they have to sooner because of the water retention) to make sure that I’m back to normal function.  If I am then we will get the green light to have more children later down the road (much later if you ask us).  With the next pregnancy we would do a heart echo before trying to conceive and then continue them throughout the pregnancy to make sure that the Cardiomyopathy doesn’t resurface, and so if it does it’s caught early.  So I guess in 6 months we’ll know the “are you gonna have more?” answer.

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4 Responses

  1. hehehe … funny how you get used to being flashed at everyone when you’re in labor and then later you’re like, “they saw THAT??” 🙂 Good luck with the nursing!

    And I hope the swelling goes down. I remember my sister’s legs were HUGE the week after her last baby, but then it went away. Hope yours goes soon, too.

  2. I had no modesty left after having my son. And it took about 2 months before I stopped being aware my boobs were out in the fresh air. Keep us posted on your heart.

  3. Poor Jeremy. The 2nd time around, they’d ask, “Here it comes, do you want to see it?” NOPE “Do you want to cut the umbilical cord?” NOPE “So what is it that you’re going to do?” – “I take pictures after it’s all over . . .”

  4. I swear pregnancy and birth can be one of the most uncomfortable things possible as far as modesty is concerned. You think that it gets better but just you wait until JD gets old enough to ask. Blushing just won’t cover it when you have to explain what your “soft pillows” are (that was what Adam referred to them as)…(=

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